Monday, March 4, 2013

I am no sidekick

So this week was a bit of a blur!

To sum up the sickness stuff: It turns out I had pink eye in both eyes, likely caused from the fever I spiked the week before. A few days into the antibiotics, this random thing formed in the back of my throat. It was kind of cool looking. To make a long story short, we were able to pull it out! No doctors necessary. Twas awesome. And now I am all better :) The interesting thing was, one night Sister Szuch and I were planning and I said to her, "Sister Szuch, tomorrow I will not be sick anymore." She looked at me funny because my eyes were red and I had trouble talking because of the thing in my throat. I must have appeared a tad crazy. After we were done planning the next day I went upstairs and decided to try and pull the bacteria thing out and after a try or two it worked! Then the next morning my eyes started healing, and by the end of the day I was good as new. The power of positive thinking, right? Ha.

In my altered mental state last week I failed to acknowledge one other birthday! J-BIEBS IS ONE YEAR OLDER, YA'LL! All day I walked around wishing everyone a Happy Bieber Birthday. Only people I knew, mind you. No worries. Such a good birthday week!


This week, Sister Earl (goes home a transfer after me) was telling someone that she had 2 transfers left and I felt an intense pain of....something? I'm still not really sure! My immediate response was to plug my ears or something but I resisted and said "Sister Earl! You have 3 transfers left. Don't do that to me." She reminded me that this transfer is half over. I lost that battle. It's not that I don't want go home, I just want to go home AND stay out here. At the same time. The thought of not being able to teach the same way or just jump into people lives is pretty painful, guys. I am trying to make the most of the time I have left so that when it's time to leave it I'll be ready. Right now I just know I still have things to do.

This week we watched a devotional from Elder Bednar- the same man who came and spoke to us about the character of Christ while I was in the MTC- and something he said really stuck out to me. Well, lots of things. Anyways! He had a friend, married 3 weeks before, who was diagnosed with bone cancer. As I may have mentioned a month or two ago, a good friend of mine, married a year before, was just diagnosed with bone cancer. Elder Bednar talked to us about "the faith not to be healed" which is a concept I had never considered before. So often when hard things happen we talk about the faith to be healed, meaning having trust that God will do whatever it is you want Him to do. But what if that doesn't happen? What if someone dies or hurts you or leaves and everything you prayed wouldn't happen happens anyway? What if you serve a mission for 18 months and it looks like you didn't help anyone along the way? Coming to "have the faith not to be healed" means faith that whatever God has planned for us is best, even if it's not easy, comfortable, or pretty. That takes a lot more than praying for everything to be perfect. That doesn't mean we don't hope for good things to happen, but if it's not part of the plan, we can't just up and ditch things we know to be true! Faith means things will be alright in the long run. It means He will never abandon or forsake us. He loves us more than we do, remember?

Ok well that's pretty much all I've got for this week. Three cheers for March! I miss the sunshine. I hope it comes back before too long.
Cheerio,
Hermana Raines

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